i feel kinda fucked up,i don't know what's wrong with me,i really don't.it's just that everytime i hope things in general get better they don't.lit today killed my hand and i.all of us didn't expect that story to come out.anyway.geog wasn't too good and same for bio.i'm trying to get over the shit of being upset over my papers but it just hasn't worked.at least i haven't cried over a paper.i'm improving.

and certain things really make me angry.really fucking angry.i don't know why,but they do.maybe its's mere existance but really,i shouldn't care,i really shouldn't cuz it's gonna do me no good.maybe i should force myself to forget sensitivity on this subject but it just seems to bother me.it's like smth picking at you.once you've done your best to put it out of mind something happens.i think now i understand.i know its the same with me,but i try to forget and i'll never let it get in the way of us.

well,papers are over on monday,glorious monday.but then i have a short spand till Ns which is fucking terrifying but oh wells.i guess that's the bulk of all that i have to spit out,for now.

xoxo,
chess

i just wanna lose myself in you,
won't you let me.